Thursday, July 31

Then call me a Twit if you must!

A few days after I discovered plurking, I joined Twitter. I don't know if most of you guys reading my blog are familiar already with Twitter since it started earlier than Plurk. So for those who are not familiar with the service, then here's what's it all about:

Twitter is a service for friends, family, and co–workers to communicate and stay connected through the exchange of quick, frequent answers to one simple question: What are you doing?

Here's how my twitter updates look like:


It's just than plain and simple, I just write what I am doing at the moment. By doing so I let friends who follow me know what I am doing in real time. What's good about Twitter is that you can also send updates thru SMS. This is an advantage for those who are in the US or UK because sending updates to Twitter makes you use an international mobile number. For Philippine mobile users, that means Php 15 per update. Receiving updates is a different side of the story because it's absolutely free (tried and tested it today). For me to be able to send updates to my Twitter account (and even to my Plurk account), I registered my number to the PhTwitter service that makes me send updates for the price of local sms. I still had to activate my mobile phone by sending a one-time sms to the international gateway though.


Posting updates on Twitter is, for me, sort of making a mini-blog everyday. My updates capture my spur-of-the-moment thoughts not like when I blog because I tend to organize my thoughts first before typing away. Besides it's more convenient to be updating on the move. Check it out and hope you enjoy it as well as I do.


Oh, and don't forget to follow me!

Sunday, July 27

Self-assessment

My husband and I have been hitting on each other's nerves lately.He told me that I'm too serious and that I shouldn't take everything he says like he means it. He told me that I'm always judging everything that he says and I take them against me. I can't take most of his jokes, lately. I think they are foolish and immature.

Today, during lunch, we had our recent spat.We have just attended our son's PTA meeting in school and we were having a conversation on how only 6 sets of parents and guardians came in my son's section.He said something like "Pwede naman pala eh." and I got irritated as usual. I went like "Ewan ko sa iyo." and I said something like it's our only son's school event we were talking about and for it me it was on top of my priorities. Then he asked me if I ever assess myself when I react like that and that he only meant it as a joke (again!). I kept quiet and thought about it which was hard because deep inside I was fuming mad.

In my 30 minutes of silence before our lunch was served (service is that bad at Floring's SM City Taytay), I realized some things. I think that I have been looking at life differently now. I am more serious and uptight and in doing so I hurt the ones that should enjoy life with me the most. I can blame this attitude of mine on so many outside factors. It can be because of the stress I encounter everyday from work. It can be because of the worries I have on my health. It can be because I am so dam#* tired and I lack sleep. Still, there's no one else to blame but me. So I just nudged myself and told my sub-conscious to always be on the watch for my over-reactive moments. Less outburst = less conflict = happy relationships.

But then again, am I being a bad person for being this way?

Friday, July 25

Have you plurked lately?

Finally, I was able to change the lay-out of my blog. I felt tired of the old layout. That one was done without so much creativity, hehehe. I think I was too busy to put some pimps on it. I was also tired of the black background. I had to make it more kikay. (To my multiply readers: my blogs are crossposted to blogger so contents are the same. The blogger site just shows more of my personality.)

So I was googling funky add-ons that I can add to my site when I stumbled upon Plurk.com. Plurk is a site that lets you post short, kinda like friendster shout-outs, to your own plurk profile. However, it has a timeline and that makes your friends aware of your most recent thoughts and vice versa. Plus, every member has karma points that serves as a gauge on how active they are on plurk. More karma points means more plurk privileges. You can increase karma points by adding friends, plurking more often in a day (but not more than 30 plurks a day), and responding to plurks. It's a cool way of getting in touch with friends. I am warning you that it may be addictive but not really hazardous to your health (not unless you get sore fingertips from excessive plurking ;p)! Hope to see you in my plurk world!

Sunday, July 20

Globe G-Cash

I know that Globe G-Ccash has been introduced already in the mobile banking world a few years back but I have just done my first ever transaction today. I'm so happy I saw the Globe Menu again when I put my Globe sim in the Sim 1 part of my dual sim phone. Hahaha... yun lang pala yun. I finally remembered that I have a G-Cash account pala! I also enrolled my BPI Account to the mobile banking facility. Finally, mas hi-tech na ang bising lola niyo! Haha! Rap and I went to SM City Taytay today and I dropped by the Globe Business Center to make a cash-in transaction to my account. Tomorrow, I will try to use the money to buy load wallet from Load Central.

Thursday, July 17

Teaching Mauie

Once in a blue moon, I write about my experiences as a teacher. I think that I didn't write more about them in the past because my subconcsious mind doesn't want to. It's just that, sometimes, I do get so tired at the end of the day that my mind wants to get away from what I do at work. Besides, I get to write more seldom now. Now I feel the need to write because after these past few years of teaching, I have become a more learned person. Students can teach teachers, too... BELIEVE ME!

From Rap I have learned to become a different person apart from what I was back then. My son was my first student (as I were his). I taught him in homeschool for a year before we sent him to a big school. He was able to read independently before he turned three. That's when I knew that I can teach. So I enrolled myself in graduate school and reinvented myself.

From my Kinder 1 class I have learned how to share. I learned how to share myself with other children. I learned how to divide my love and attention with 14 kids everyday. Some of them needed me to say "Good Job!" for a coloring activity even they have made a rainbow-colored person. Some of them needed me to sing for them their favorite nursery songs. Some of them needed me to tell them stories. But all of them needed me to show them how to have fun with learning. Oh how I miss our "Spiderman Clap" days!

I learned so much from my special kids. From Josh, I learned patience. Once he turned his table upside down because he was so frustrated with our seat work. I would have lost my senses but I managed to take a deep breath and just relax. From Kenneth's crying and headbanging moments, I learned to be understanding of others. I started to research more about autism and how to become a more effective teacher of an autistic child. From Keille and Angela, I learned how to appreciate life's little triumphs. I jumped with joy with every new word that is added to their vocabulary.

I learned how to dream from Lorane. She may be mentally challenged but she has dreams of making it big someday. I hope that someday all of them can come true. From Elliza I learned acceptance. Her teachers and classmates may think of her as a naughty child but all I got to see the sweet girl that was just longing to be accepted. From Viana I learned that a family doesn't only mean having both mom and dad together. From Isha's very busy schedule I learned about time management. From Maki I learned how important it is for a Filipino child to learn Filipino (unless the parents plan to send their kids to international school!). From Bernard I learned cooperation. Success in learning away from school is possible only from a joint collaboration between tutor, student, and parents. From Naoya I learned how to smile more. Once I asked him why he's always giggling during our sessions. He told me "Para tatawa ka at hindi ka papangit!" Hahaha, this one's really a classic. A child's innocence really is amazing.

My mom is a retired professor. Growing up in a family who always needed to make ends meet, I have always frowned upon the thought of me being a teacher. But here I am, back to the noble profession that helped my mom feed and educate me and my siblings. I am glad I became a teacher because from being one I become a well-rounded person each day.

To teach is to learn twice. ~Joseph Joubert, Pensées, 1842

Wednesday, July 16

Happy Birthday, Ate Net!

I know it would be rude to write about my Ate Net's age but I think there's an 8 year difference between us so go figure! You're probably thinking who my Ate Net is? My mom says she really is the panganay in our family but actually she's a niece of my father who lived with us for ten years. My mom helped send her to college. In return, she took care of us and our house. Lately, my mom's favorite line is : "Hay naku, nung nasa atin pa si Ate Net niyo, prinsesa ako!" Because she really took care of EVERYTHING! Most of our friends even think that she's related to my mom more than my dad. She's more Bicolana na raw than a Bisaya. We also tease Lucky, my youngest brother, that he's only adopted and he's a son of Ate Net out of wedlock. Hahahaha, ang bad namin ano? Now, she's living with her mom and youngest sister. She was able to graduate and send her siblings to college. In doing so, she set aside her own plans and is still living a life of single blessedness up to now.

So, to our dear Ate Net, here's to happier and more fruitful years ahead! Goodkarma comes to people like you, remember that!

Tuesday, July 15

Dear Diary

I got hold of my old journals last week. When my sister finally moved out of my parents' house in April this year, the bachelors, Toto and Lucky, took over our room. It was my cue to salvage everything that was left of my things when I was still living there. I wouldn't want them to read the juicy entries in my journals! Juicy daw o! Hahaha! Now all four of them are nestled somewhere in my own bookshelf in my own house. I read some bits and pieces from my old journals. I almost died of embarrassment from myself! It's funny to read how foolish I was those days. Ang sarap talaga ng buhay noon. Puro school, boys, and allowance lang ang problema! I also got to read the last journal that I kept that was the one when I met my husband. Kilig moments ito! I felt I love him even more after reading our past dates and his love letters. I also read the entry when we learned that I was already pregnant with Rap! It's the blogging world's fault that I somehow failed to maintain my journal. Or maybe I just got so preoccupied with family and work. Now, I keep a small journal in my bag. I realized that there are just some things that I can't write about online. Iba pa rin ang feeling when I write on an actual journal. It's more spontaneous because I don't have to edit what I write and I don't have to be conscious about spelling and grammar. It's still more personal and intimate.

Father's Love Letter

My son's assignment for Christian Living last Friday was not for him but for us. It was a home-school collaboration. We were tasked to research this letter a write our reflections about it. Dadijun had to work this weekend so I was the one who did the assignment. I had tons of work to do also last weekend. I had countless worksheets to prepare for my students so I did this assignment a few hours before bedtime. I even forgot to do it, not until Rap reminded me to do so. That was how busy I was before reading this letter.

My Child…

You may not know me, but I know everything about
you…Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up…Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways…Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your
head are numbered…Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image…Genesis
1:27
In me you live and move and have your being…Acts 17:28
For you are
my offspring…Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived…Jeremiah
1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation…Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not
a mistake, for all your days are written in my book…Psalm 139:15-16
I
determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live…Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made…Psalm 139:14
I knit you together
in your mother's womb…Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were
born…Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me…John
8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love…1
John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you…1 John 3:1
Simply
because you are my child and I am your father…1 John 3:1
I offer you more
than your earthly father ever could…Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect
father…Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my
hand…James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs…Matthew
6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope…Jeremiah
29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love…Jeremiah 31:3
My
thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore…Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing…Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop
doing good to you…Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession…Exodus
19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul…Jeremiah
32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things…Jeremiah 33:3
If
you seek me with all your heart, you will find me…Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight
in me and I will give you the desires of your heart…Psalm 37:4
For it is I
who gave you those desires…Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine…Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest
encourager…2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in
all your troubles…2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close
to you…Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to
my heart…Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your
eyes…Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on
this earth…Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love
my son, Jesus…John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed…John
17:26
He is the exact representation of my being…Hebrews 1:3
He came to
demonstrate that I am for you, not against you…Romans 8:31
And to tell you
that I am not counting your sins…2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that
you and I could be reconciled…2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the
ultimate expression of my love for you…1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I
loved that I might gain your love…Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of
my son Jesus, you receive me…1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again…Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen…Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be
Father…Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…Will you be my child?…John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you…Luke 15:11-32


Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God

Used by permission Father Heart Communications Copyright 1999 www.FathersLoveLetter.com

An eye-opening experience followed after I have thoroughly read and understood what it's all about. Honestly, this letter is not at all unfamiliar to me. This was already sent to me through email a few years back but I just gave it a quick scan and left it in my inbox.

Over the past few weeks, I have been depressed over some problems. I have been having guilt-trip moments in times when I'm alone. I started to ask myself, and even other people, if I am being a bad daughter. I had trouble sleeping and I started to forget things. It's affecting my work, I started to be less-patient with the students. I even became irritable with Rap and I hate it when I shout at him over little things. I know I made him confused with my mood swings.

As I have written in my reflection, I realized that the task that the my son's school had given was indeed a blessing. Oftentimes, when one is disturbed, God is forgotten. Before these problems, I constantly talked to God before retiring at night. Lately, even my quiet talks with God were disturbed with the sad thoughts that haunted me. Reading the love letter gave me the reassurance that I needed. I feel better now because I realized what I needed to do. That is, to just be His child again and let My Father take good care of me.

Hope you feel the same reassurance as I have felt after reading this wonderful message!

Tuesday, July 1

There it goes... faster than the speed of light!

It took me a couple of minutes to think of the appropriate title for this post. I just can't seem to organize my thoughts because I am really bothered with this. For days now, my husband and I have been asking ourselves if we made the right decision to buy a second car. With gas prices rising up weekly, I was just able to let out an awkward sigh. We bought a new car so I can use the old one to and from work. A few months back, I thought that it would really be practical, thinking that it would be a great convenience on my part. Besides, it could have helped me in doing errands without waiting for Dadijun's day off.

Last summer, I was constantly daydreaming of how good it would be coming to my class looking fresh because I won't be riding the jeepney anymore. Now it's July and I'm still riding the jeep to Pasig! Hahaha! With premium gasoline at 60 pesos per liter, I would rather ride the jeep everyday! Going to work, I take the journey that costs me 10 pesos from Cainta to Mercedes Ave., Pasig. From there, I take a special trip on a tricycle that costs 40 pesos to Greenwoods. Going home, I take a regular tricycle trip that costs 10 pesos, and another journey drive to Cainta that's worth another 10 pesos. It's just a total of 70 pesos daily commuting expenses. Daily, I only earn around 500 pesos a day for my 2 to 6 pm tutorial sessions (I put half of the tutorial fees in our funds). My only alternative on days when it's raining hard is to take a cab at 120 pesos, but that should be ONLY on special instances and not on a daily basis. This way, I will able to save up for my youngest brother's tuition fee, which reminds me that it's already July and Prelim is just a few weeks away.

It's hard to save money nowadays with prices of everything rising sky-high everyday. We are just fortunate that, at least, my husband has a high-paying job and he pays for all of our utilities (even my credit card bills). This year, I volunteered to shoulder my brother's tuition fees. My parents are already retired and are living only on pension. My other brother who is still single helps them financially with the payment of other utilities. I still thank God that, somehow, we are able to make ends meet.