My Sugar Free Sweet Life

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Taba, Juba, Jubz, Chabs...

I've been called this names more than a hundred times in my whole 28 years of existence. I try to laugh at it during my sunny days. It's just that I can't seem to see the sun shine on me lately.

I was small and slim in my childhood. My mother called me Petite. Being fat wasn't my problem, then. It was being dark-skinned.

I started gaining weight in high school. I think the puberty stage made me eat more and the growing assignments made me less active. I played less and sat more. In between the reading and the writing was the snacking. That was what made me fat.

In my third year of high school, I was already weighing 124 lbs. at 5 foot flat! Friends and family started noticing the weight gain. Thus, the name calling began. Not to mention the pressure that I got from their constant hideous comments.

Two days ago, a daughter of a (Filipino) celebrity made the news by being a survivor of a coma. She got that from downing Chinese slimming pills. I did not get the exact details of what happened to her. It was said that she bought the slimming pills in a popular mall. The pills' active ingredient was Phentermine. It is supposed to be a prescription drug.

I tried Phentermine in my early college years. I guess the pressure was just too much. (Plus, my sister was a budding pharmacist so I was able to buy with prescription.) The results were instant, I lost pounds in a week. When I used phentermine, my appetite was supressed. I did not feel like eating at all. I was always awake and alert. After a few days I experienced dryness in my throat. I was still thirsty even if I drank lots of water. I became giddy most of the time. I also remembered a time when my heart began to palpitate, my heartbeat faster than a cheetah. That was when I decided to stop.

Fast forward----------------------> I got married, gave birth---------------> I was bigger than when I was in high school! The name-calling never stopped.

Believe me, I try to lose weight. I ate less, moved more, did every diet I can think of. I tried South Beach Diet before, but my kidney suffered. Seems I'm not the kind of person that can survive on protein alone. Now, I just do water therapy. My mom was the first one who tried it and it made her blood sugar stay at the normal levels. I am also planning to play badminton regularly now that I found a center that's just near our place. I don't stock our ref with softdrinks anymore, I drink green tea more often.

My husband always reminds me of how beautiful and sexy I am in his eyes. But all these years of name-callings and pressures have taken it's toll on my self-confidence. Thank God I have a husband who can push the clouds away and let the sun shine on me. Or else, I would have been drowned in self-depression.

I chanced upon Dementia's blog on the Pinoy Top Blogs list and read about size acceptance. She writes about being disgusted about people who equate being fat with being unhealthy. I couldn't agree more. I try to lose weight because I am diabetic and I need to be more on the healthy side. I think the worse problem with obese people is not the aesthetic but, rather, the health issue. But then, don't you think the worst problem of all would be the people around them who torture their self-confidence every day?

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As I write this post, I am now using blogger beta. I'm still fine-tuning the elements of my page layout. Hope you'll like the new look. I stuck with the bottom bar, as you can notice. Seems this layout will be the best for me.

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Have you noticed that my sidebar is not where it is supposed to be? To those not familiar about blogger templates, the sidebar is the one that contains my profile, archive list, links, and add-ons. It's supposed to be at the right side of this content bar (or the part of the blog where you see the posts). Now my sidebar has become a bottom bar! Grrrr! I hate how it looks right now. I don't know why. Maybe something's wrong with blogger since it's beginning to start blogger-beta. Other bloggers using blogger.com are also having this problem at present.

So guys, please bear with the unbearable appearance of my blog right now. I'll try to fix it soon. If it isn't fixed, I might migrate my blog to wordpress.

Sad :(


Tag/s: blogging

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My back is killing me! My arms are aching! After relocating to Makati, yesterday was the first time I played badminton. Bad idea? Hmmm... I think not.

Bigla ko naman na-miss si Natz. Natz is a former officemate of Daddyjun. She was my unofficial badminton trainor. Galing maglaro. Playing badminton made her slimmer, too. Kaya nga na-enganyo ako eh.

Before, in Laguna, we play every Wednesday night. Ngayon, bigla akong nawalan ng kalaro. Hirap pa naman pag matagal na hindi ka nakapaglaro, parang natulog ang mga muscles ko.

Biglaan ang pagyayaya ni Ate Net. Actually, she was bugging me weeks ago about it, ngayon lang natuloy. We went to the nearest center to our place, Badminton Central. We arrived early, during Sundays, a lot of players flock the courts so they can avail of the 100 buck per head unlimited play. Because we were early, we were able to find a nice court. Two hours and a half lang ang itinagal ng powers ko. After that, I was already feeling an onset of migraine. Nabigla yata ang katawan ko.

Rap with Daddy and Tita Net

Our play yesterday was worthwhile anyhow. First, I got to spend some bonding time with Ate Net. Medyo matagal-tagal na rin naming walang ganito. I'm glad we're ok now. Mahabang kwento ng tampuhan, I think I'll write about that in time. Second, I got to perform some active workout after a while. I was supposed to go to Fitness First Ortigas yesterday because my lawyer-friend referred me. Kaya lang it was raining so hard kaya tinamad na kami. Besides, another friend told me that membership in Gold's Gym is cheaper. I'll check it out soon.

I emailed our Pamilya Tordecillas e-group today and asked them if they would like us to have a family badminton gimmick. I'm sure it would be a blast!

Tag/s: fitness

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